I feel so..horrible.. =S

I fucking hate you. Why it always has to be you that screw things up for me? WHY YOU. EVERY SINGLE TIME.

And I thought the day could end well yesterday BUT YOU JUST HAVE TO RUIN IT FOR ME. WHY.

WHY.. I'VE BEEN WANTING HER FOR A LONG TIME AND YET AFTER I GOT IT, YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME AGAIN. WHY.

NOW I CAN'T FIND HER ANYWHERE ELSE. DO YOU THINK MONEY CAN REPLACE EVERYTHING? DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT I CAN GET HER BACK THAT EASILY? NOT A CHANCE. NOT A FUCKING CHANCE. I CAN'T EVEN GO TO THE PLACE TO GET HER BACK. BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU. FUCKING HELL.

I FUCKING HATE YOU. DO NOT ASK ME TO DO ANY REQUESTS FOR YOU NEXT TIME. I AM NOT GONNA DO IT TILL YOU GET HER BACK TO ME. FUCK YOU. I HATE YOU TO THE CORE. DO NOT ACT MR.NICEGUY INFRONT OF ME BECAUSE I WILL NOT BUY IT. I WILL LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM TILL YOU RETURN HER BACK TO ME. FUCK YOU.

I feel so fucking horrible right now. I can't eat, I can't sleep. FUCK. Do you really have to make life that miserable for me? DO YOU!?

YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT FOR ONCE. ITS ALWAYS MOM THAT SETTLES EVERY SINGLE THING. NOT YOU. EVER SINCE THE FUCKING TENANTS MOVED IN, I AM TOTALLY NOT IN YOUR EYES ANYMORE. FUCK. SMOKE HERE SMOKE THERE, HOW BOUT I PUMP CARBON MONOXIDE INFRONT OF YOU EVERYDAY AND MAKE YOU INHALE IT. DO YOU FUCKING LOVE IT?

EVERYTIME I WANT SOMETHING FROM YOU, ITS ALWAYS ME OR MOM THAT GETS IT FOR ME. DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU CAN REPLACE THE THING THAT YOU MADE LOST BACK TO ME? DO YOU REALLY THINK SO?

ITS SO FUCKING UNFAIR. YOU, COMPLETELY, DON'T, KNOW, HOW, I, FEEL!!!

Do you know what I like? Do you know what I hate?
I DON'T FUCKIN' THINK SO.

For you, she might be something unimportant, but do you know how FUCKING IMPORTANT SHE IS TO ME? DO YOU FUCKING KNOW? EVEN IF SHES USELESS, ITS STILL IMPORTANT TO ME. NOW HOW DO YOU FEEL? MAKING ME UNABLE TO SLEEP, I COULDN'T EVEN FUCKING PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS TODAY. FUCK YOU.

I am tired. I am seriously tired. I am not gonna say anything about you anymore. Heck, I might even not talk to you anymore. I had enough.