I know why now.

I know. I am such a bother aren't I?

Best is that I kept my hands to myself. Kept quiet to every single thing.

Go back to the life that I had before. Quit my subculture nonsense. Go back to being me and close myself up. I love it.

Maybe I could quit those and just play my guitar. Maybe I could be well known one day and people actually starts to come up to me. Maybe.

Sorry. I am just not game enough for it.

I am not good enough. I am just a nobody.

Just a passer-by. I am here, but no one actually notices.

Forget it.. I will do fine alone by myself. I had enough of lying to myself.

I just can't find the will to love anymore. See ya.